I don't understand

Why do I miss you all the time?

Why do I even care that I never get to see you?

Do you even care about me anymore?

I wish things could go back to the way they were

You always say that you are going to call

I sit here and wait and wait all day
Not a single ring and again I'm disappointed

I know you're very busy and that you don't have much time
I don't see why I always get my hopes up when I know it's never going to happen
You say that you never get to see me
You say that we should get together sometime
But I know it would never happen

I wish you wouldn't tell me these things
I would rather not know and therefore I wouldn't get so upset when it didn't happen
I try and call you and get nothing in return

It would seem that you don't even want to talk to me anymore
Even though you always say that you do
I just don't understand and it's messing with my head
I would love to talk to you
But I always feel annoying and I don't want to bug you

You said you were proud of me
You said that I was a good kid
You were there for me when nobody else was
You believed in me
So where are you?

I just don't understand.......